posted on october 15th, 2013
1. It can feel like depression… but not. “I wondered if I was depressed. But I wanted to work,” writes O’Rourke. “I didn’t feel apathy, only a weird sense that my mind and my body weren’t synched.” Shit! I get this. Let’s break it down…
2. Work is OK. The rest is hard. Of all the commitments in my life, working is the only one I can deal with when my thyroid folds. But only when I can shut out (oh, I hate that this is so…) people and other “complications”. It’s two things. First, in times of desperation (like when I have to do TV or speak to a group), adrenalin will kick in and dull AI symptoms. And I get through. Adrenalin trumps AI symptoms, but longterm this equation is a recipe for disaster as adrenalin acerbates AI.
Second, while AI causes brain fog, this can actually work to shut out distractions. With extra effort (which AI sufferers are good at), a singular focus can be kept. I’ve written before howpain and “fending” can make me really present.
(PS I’m writing this post in the midst of an AI flare. I’m hurting like hell. But I’m able to focus and write and get down and dirty with you all.)
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